Sometimes when I drink while walking on the stretch of road from the MRT station to my home, all struggling to finish my drink, I wonder, "If I pour my drink away on the grass, will they wilt and die?"

There.

I wonder what it's like over there.
Will there be no music, only silence?
Will the temperature be way higher than it is now, and no fan or air-con to turn on?
Will there be nothing, no one, but empty space?

I wonder how I'll be like over there.
Will I still be a human being, or something else?
Will I still be who I am now, regardless of what form I take?
Will I exist at all?

What I wish for, is that there is no "over there", and there won't be "me".

[pinned] Artists I will watch LIVE.

I love LIVE performances. If I had unlimited money, I'd probably go to every single concert of the artists that I regularly listen to. But I don't, therefore this post.

There are a few rules (necessarily in this order) to determine whether I'd want to watch a certain artist LIVE:

1) 周杰倫 = a resounding YES, regardless of anything else.

2) Solo concerts: only bands (i.e. not boy/girlbands or solo singers). Of particular interest: 五月天, F.T Island, OneRepublic and 蘇打綠. Other bands worth mentioning: 八三夭, Linkin Park, Boys Like Girls.

3) Exceptions to Rule #2: Shinhwa and 王力宏, whose concerts I wish to go for, at least once. Also, DBSK, when/if they reunite as five in the future.

4) Mixed concerts: only if I like almost every artist performing.

5) Other conditions that apply to Rule #2-#4: ticket price and current financial condition, and whether I have anyone to go with.

As you can see, even after applying these rules, there are still quite a number of concerts that I want to go for. So I'm accepting applications for concert mates! :D Rest assured, I am an excellent concert mate who goes all out in cheering for the artists (but only at the appropriate times), so you won't regret watching a concert with me ^___^.

Tick-tock.

During Mayday's concert, the members talked about how they just came from China and it felt like they just arrived in Singapore but before they knew it, it was already the last day of the concert and they were going to leave the following day. Then, 怪獸 said something like, "时间，好像不是很够用的感觉。" I kinda teared a little at that, because I've never really felt that way. These days I've been thinking to myself, "Have 24 hours always felt this long?"

I think since it's the school holidays now and I don't have assignments and projects to complete and notes to revise, the hole in my life is even more painfully obvious. In the past I could still distract myself with dramas, variety shows and mangas, and I'd be contented with sitting on my butt in front of the computer the whole day, but now it just doesn't work anymore. 

I've been awake since 8am today. I played badminton from 10am to 12.30pm, had lunch, took a shower, came back, washed dishes from this morning's breakfast, read around 20 chapters of manga, had a really good 2-hour sleep, woke up and cook myself instant noodles, washed the dishes, cut fruits and ate them, watched 3 episodes of New Girl, and now here I am, looking at the clock and wondering why it still shows 10.53pm. Okay, 10.54 now.

I can't remember how I passed the time yesterday. I vaguely remember waking up at around 4pm, and 2 hours later, I felt bored already. 

It's not about how I can while away the time either; I have tons of movies, dramas and variety shows already in my computer ready to be watched, but I just don't feel like watching them. 

I am so tempted to just buy alcohol and drink myself to sleep every night. But I know it's stupid and unhealthy, so I stop myself from doing it. 

I know that I'm whining too much about something that doesn't even seem like a problem. So I have too much time on my hands; just go and do something, you dummy! It's not that easy, though, if you don't have anything you wanna do. I feel like I can't really talk about it either, because it's not something that anyone can help me with. I should be thankful that I am healthy, don't have to worry about money, and basically don't have anything that other people usually call a big problem. And I am, thankful. But there are days when I wished I get knocked down by a car, so my meaningless existence would end. Or get cancer, because maybe when there's a deadline to my life, I'd finally figure out what to do with what little I had of it. 

(Sorry to all cancer patients out there who might be reading this, by the way; I know I sound like an ignorant fool slash ungrateful piece of shit. Would it help if I say with all sincerity that right now, if I could, I'd take the cancer from you? No? Okay then.) 

I just went into my room, put the 5 lotions on my face and now it's 11.21. Hurray! Maybe I can call it a night soon. (Except that I slept in the evening, so I am not sleepy now. Damn.)

五月天 15.06.13「諾亞方舟」concert

My very first 五月天 concert! It was so awesome omg; definitely one of the best concerts I've ever been to! (And that's saying a lot, since I've been to quite a lot of concerts.) The concert lasted around 3 hours, with 3 encores. The band performed a lot of songs from the most recent album (10 out of 13!), but there were also a lot of older hits. I'm still in a bit of a shock over how many songs they performed. And I'm so happy that they performed so many of my favourites! 突然好想你! 你不是真正的快樂! 知足! And the 還你自由版 of 溫柔 OMG. And 倉頡, which is my actually favourite song in the most recent album. Totally didn't expect them to perform it since it wasn't one of the first singles.

The band performed SO WELL! To be honest I didn't have very high expectations of 阿信's live singing, but he sounded great, albeit a bit more nasal and sharp at times. And the rest of the band MAN. The guitar/bass/drum solos! I was so impressed. Thumbs up to everyone!

The whole concert was so HIGH. I think a part of it was because of the super awesome light sticks, which somehow could change colour together at once! I still can't figure out how it works lol. The light sticks came together with the ticket, so everyone had one and the sea of blue/red/white/yellow was so pretty :). There were some very nice stage effects too. I also liked how the members interacted with the audience, asking us to cheer/clap, cracking jokes, etc. The sing-along sessions were so awesome :). The crowd was great! All in all, I really, really enjoyed myself. The 3 hours flew by, and even after so many songs, I was left wanting for more!

Looking forward to the next 五月天 concert! :D

And in that moment,
I made a silent prayer to whoever might be listening,
that I would never love anyone as much as I love you.

周杰倫 08.06.13「魔天倫」演唱會

Hee :).

Jay sang 一路向北! I legit almost lost it when the first few notes of that song came on. And following that he sang 不能說的秘密, which is another favourite of mine. He performed most of the songs from the new album (明明就! 哪里都是你! 大笨鐘!), but there was also a good mix of older hits. The concert felt really really short; I think it was only around 2 hours. Now that I think about it, though, he sang quite a lot of songs.

To be honest, I wasn't blown away by this concert like I was by his previous two. There were some good special effects but they weren't too impressive. Jay's singing was also kinda mediocre today. But overall, I had a great time! Jay's concerts always feel like a big sing-along session, because the crowd knows the lyrics to almost all of his songs, especially the older ones. As I was singing along I felt really proud of him, and also proud to be his fan :). 

I think I would have enjoyed myself more if I was sitting in the first category, where I'd be able to stand up during the concert. Because I was rather at the back, no one around me stood up. They were enthusiastic, alright -- the guy behind me knew the lyrics better than I do -- but I still felt rather restrained since I am used to standing throughout concerts. We only stood up at the last encore, when Jay asked everyone to stand up. Still, I cheered to my heart's content and dutifully waved my lightstick throughout!

I love you, Jay ♥. Till next time, then!

[pinned] My goals. (10/06)

Here is a list of the things that I want to achieve, both big and small. It is a reminder for me to start working towards these goals!

1. I want to stop saying wah-lao.

2. I want to have a good physical stamina.

3. I want to become a vegetarian.

4. I want to wake up at 6am every morning, and sleep at 12am every night.

5. I want to start learning music again.

I can't do this anymore.

It hurts to have to keep a distance when all I wanna do is run to you and hug you with all my might.

Sometimes it gets too much to bear and during these moments, I can't even muster a smile. I hate how I turn all weird; I am not myself.

I am not okay. I haven't been okay for a long time.

I just can't do this anymore.

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I still want you in my life.

Even though it hurts to have to keep a distance when all I wanna do is run to you and hug you with all my might, it would hurt more if I can't see you.

I might still sometimes turn weird when it gets too much to bear, but give me a moment to get myself together and I'll be able to smile from my heart again.

It's okay, and I'll be okay.

Because I still want you in my life.

Time to get over myself.

I suck at conflict resolution. Since I was little, when two of my close friends had a fight, I'd try to get them to make up, but after a while I'd just stop and leave them alone. I think that no matter what outsiders do, a conflict can only be resolved if the parties directly involved want it to and make an effort for it to happen.

When DBSK officially disbanded, I stopped listening to the group's old songs altogether. As much as I loved those songs, they just made me miserable thinking that I'd never hear the five members singing them anymore. When JYJ and TVXQ came back separately, I listened to their albums once, decided that they were sorely disappointing, and did not listen to them again. It was strange; those were the same five people and the same five voices that I grew to love over the past few years, yet it was as if I did not know them. I whined and whined, lamenting over how I disliked their new sound, and how I missed the old DBSK. I avoided their TV appearances, for when I did I'd start smiling and laughing because of them, and I'd get reminded of just how much I loved them. When once in a while I let my curiosity got the better of me and watched any TVXQ's videos, I'd feel guilty because I did not watch JYJ's, and vice versa. And most importantly, even though I kept saying that I was waiting for the day when I stop feeling sad when I listen to their songs, a part of me did not want that day to come. I was afraid that when that day comes, I will finally accept the existence of the two groups, and the fact that DBSK is no more. I thought that by hurting because of the split up, I was keeping DBSK alive in my memory.

In retrospect, I was only thinking of myself. No matter what had happened, I abandoned the five members when they needed support. I blamed them for my pain, and ignored the fact that if even I was in pain, they probably thought they were in hell. It was also not surprising that I disliked all their new songs; it wasn't how good or bad they were that mattered, just that they weren't sung by the old DBSK.

A character in a drama once said that it takes as much time to get over a lost love as the time you've loved. I started liking DBSK in 2007, and even though the group officially disbanded in late 2009, I only gave up hoping that they would reunite in late 2010. It's now 2013. Enough already. 

I still believe that the bond between the members was real. I still have hopes of them one day resolving their misunderstandings and becoming friends again. In my imagination, they will one day meet up, talk, scream and shout, punch one another while crying their eyes out, and eventually when they are too tired to move, they will lie sprawled on the ground, laughing at how stupid this whole thing was. I don't even need them to reunite as DBSK; knowing the members make up is enough for me. Or maybe it already happened and they're just waiting for the right time to reveal it.

I will start listening to DBSK, TVXQ, JYJ and the members' solo songs again. Maybe over time, I will stop  switching songs abruptly in the middle of an old DBSK ballad because tears threaten to fall as I listen to the familiar melody that seems so far away. Maybe one day I will stop looking for a shadow of the other members' voices in TVXQ and JYJ's songs. Maybe one day I will stop feeling the urge to refer to the new two-member DBSK as Homin, and can stop referring to them as TVXQ, just as I do now just because I don't want to call them DBSK. Maybe one day I will finally know that it is okay to not mourn for DBSK anymore, to like TVXQ and JYJ, and to call the current DBSK, DBSK. It is okay, because they are still the same five people and five voices that I grew to love, and because even though it is TVXQ and JYJ that remain now, DBSK's music still lives. 

JPM - 我沒有很想你

我沒有很想你 只是每早醒來第一個想到你
我沒有很想你 只是偶爾會翻閱你的短訊
我沒有很想你 只是把自己關在角落裡
逃避 逃避 逃避 隨便你

我沒有很想你 只是在夜裡睡不著翻來覆去
我沒有很想你 只是偶爾會打聽你的消息
我沒有很想你 只是偶爾會播放你愛看的電影
我真的沒有想你

我沒有很想你
我沒有很想你
我只是 愛你勝過愛自己
我沒有很想你
我沒有很想你
我知道你已離去

我沒有很想你 只是在夜裡睡不著翻來覆去
我沒有很想你 只是偶爾會打聽你的消息
我沒有很想你 只是偶爾會播放你愛看的電影
我真的沒有想你

我沒有很想你
我沒有很想你
我只是 愛你勝過愛自己
我沒有很想你
只是偶爾想抱緊你
我真的沒有想你

我真的沒有想你
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I love this song, sigh.

On a side note, let me just say that 小傑 looks reeeally good in the MV heee.

I can't do this. I can't say it.
Tomorrow I'm going to deny that I said it, if I ever did.
No, I did not say that, I never did.
Yes, I am alright, always have been.

But because I have to,
I'll say it in a whisper,
hoping that no one will hear.


Save me.




Save me.

Freaky aliens.

Let’s like different things, so that I can introduce you to the wonders of coffee and you get me trying the weirdest-sounding food. Let’s fear different things, so that I can dare you to take the tallest roller coasters ever and you coax me into stroking your puppy’s fur. Let’s have different experiences, so that I can describe to you how pretty the night sky in Thailand is and you recount to me how you once enjoyed a conversation with a total stranger at a café in San Francisco. Let’s be different, so that I can remind you to not be cocky and you allay my insecurities.

Yet, let’s be cool about how different we are, so that it is okay for me to shake my head at your taste in music and you to laugh at my fashion sense. Let’s crash into each other with full force and wonder out loud how aliens like you and I can exist. But despite the distance that is our differences, let’s somehow meet halfway and stay there. Maybe then, we’ll find out that we are not that different after all.

Boys Like Girls - Stuck in the Middle

Here I am again
Everybody's screaming
The walls are closing in
I'm stuck in the middle.
Swimming up a stream
Suffocating in between
I wake up from the dream
I'm still stuck in the middle
I guess this time I'll wait it out

Someday things will be perfect
It will be worth it all this time
Stuck in the middle
I know things will get better
Hold it together
Take your time
Stuck in the middle

You push and then you shove
You hate and then you love
You try to switch it up
But you're stuck in the middle
No matter what you do
No matter how you choose
Well, either way you're gonna lose
When you're stuck in the middle.
I guess this time I'll wait it out

'Cause
Someday things will be perfect
It'll be worth it all this time
Stuck in the middle
I know things will get better
Hold it together
Take your time
Stuck in the middle

You fight until you're free,
You're down on your knees
Hoping someday you'll make it out
If you just believe
There's hands around your neck
Hearts beatin' out your chest
Well baby if you wait it out
You will see that

Someday things will be perfect
It'll be worth it all this time
Stuck in the middle
I know things will get better
Hold it together
Take your time
Stuck in the middle

Well, this time we're stuck in the middle
You're stuck in the middle.
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There's always a song for every emotion, every stage of our lives; that perfect song that just spells out what we've been dying to say, or what we wish someone would tell us.

I want to..

I want to dye my hair.
I want to cut my hair short.
I want to shave my head.
I want to pierce my ears.
I want to have a tattoo.
I want to go someplace.
I want to stay.
I want to do nothing.
I want to do something, anything.

Run, run away
Stay away from me
Don't talk to me, don't smile at me
Pretend I don't exist, treat me like air
You don't wanna see me, see the gaping hole in me
Run, run away
Stay away from me

五月天 - 米老鼠

一身黑皮膚 白手套紅短褲
一雙大大耳朵 隨時在 向人打招呼
他是我朋友 陪我笑 陪我哭
尤其是當我 當我最無助 有他 聽著我傾訴
夢中 城堡裡面跳舞
醒了 世界依然殘酷

以為我愛著孤獨 以為自己不會迷路
以為自己跟自己 再不用誰照顧
以為我愛著孤獨 卻又 崩潰的無助
誰能讓我擁抱著 盡情的哭

誰是草莓族 你才是榴槤族
一身傷人頑固 傷害我 還要我不哭
摩天輪停住 咖啡杯不跳舞
孩子練習著 讓悲傷麻木 快樂 也開始麻木
夢中 城堡裡面跳舞
醒了 世界依然殘酷

以為我愛著孤獨 以為自己不會迷路
以為自己跟自己 再不用誰照顧
以為我愛著孤獨 卻又 崩潰的無助
誰能讓我擁抱著 盡情的哭
讓我唯一的朋友 不是老鼠
讓我唯一的朋友 不是老鼠
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I think I might go crazy one of these days, haha ^^;;.

It's almost funny how hard it is for me to tell others about my problems. ("Almost" being the key word, because since it's happening to me, it's not funny in the slightest.)

Taylor Swift - I Almost Do

I bet this time of night you’re still up
I bet you’re tired from a long, hard week
I bet you’re sitting in your chair by the window, looking out at the city
And I bet sometimes you wonder about me

And I just want to tell you
It takes everything in me not to call you
And I wish I could run to you
And I hope you know that
Every time I don’t,
I almost do, I almost do

I bet you think I either moved on or hate you
‘Cause each time you reach out there’s no reply
I bet it never, ever occurred to you that I can’t say hello to you
And risk another goodbye

And I just want to tell you
It takes everything in me not to call you
And I wish I could run to you
And I hope you know that
Every time I don’t,
I almost do, I almost do

We made quite a mess, babe
It’s probably better off this way
And I confess, babe
That in my dreams you’re touching my face
And asking me if I want to try again with you
And I almost do

And I just want to tell you
It takes everything in me not to call you
And I wish I could run to you
And I hope you know that
Every time I don’t,
I almost do, I almost do

I bet this time of night you’re still up
I bet you’re tired from a long, hard week
I bet you’re sitting in your chair by the window, looking out at the city
And I hope sometimes you wonder about me
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This song is all about repressed feelings, and this is reflected not only in the lyrics but also in the singing; it's mellow and even at the climax it never really 'explodes'. But it's heartbreaking, all the same. Or maybe, that's why it's heartbreaking.

Hello :).

It's really good to see you, friend!

I can't remember.

I locked the memories in a box and tucked it away somewhere inconspicuous, hoping that I would somewhat forget its presence, but when I want to revisit the memories one day I'd know where to find it. But it seems that as I did that, I threw away the key as well.

And it's killing me, because even though it hurts to remember you, I'd take the pain any day over not being able to remember you.

If not now, when?

[Review] 周杰倫 - 十二新作.

Finally, I have listened to this album enough times to do a review on it. Jay's songs tend to sound better the more you listen to them, so reviewing the album after just one or two listens wouldn't give a fair evaluation of it. (But then again, someone who is not a fan wouldn't bother.) This review should be taken with a pinch of salt, because in case I do not make it obvious enough, I am a die-hard Jay fan, so no matter how hard I try to be objective, to a certain extent I am biased towards his music. Well, I must be biased towards Jay's music to be a fan of his, right? *laughs*

I'm not gonna talk about the MVs individually as it would take too long, but it is noteworthy that Jay is directing all the MVs in this album himself. And I really do like the MVs he directed! He said that there are gonna be 11 MVs in total, and 6 of them are already released at the moment. I should also mention that he looks really good in the MVs. Initially I didn't like his blonde and ginger hair in some of them, but they have grown on me somehow lol. I still maintain my stance that he looks the best with black hair though!

Listening to Jay's albums always reminds me of my love towards the sound of a piano, because it is heard in almost every song. Recently I may have been gushing over how awesome electric guitar solos sound, but really, I will never forget that my first love is the piano. It is still the prettiest-sounding instrument, in my opinion.

Overall, I think this is a great album! There are quite a few songs that me go, "WTF", but it's always in a good way 'cos they make me laugh. The light-hearted songs are nice and they make me smile. The ballads are especially good. I kinda wished these songs weren't all mixed around though; I feel bipolar, feeling depressed or almost tearing in one second and laughing or smiling in the next. Or maybe that's the point. Anyway, it's definitely a better album than the last!

1. 四季列車

Except for the first two, Jay's albums always start with a more upbeat song with rap as its verse (like 龍戰騎士, 跨時代 and 驚嘆號), and this song is no exception. I don't especially like it, but the arrangement of the song is interesting as somehow it just brings up the image of a car racing track in my head. And the "嘟嘟" and "噗噗" in the chorus always make me laugh, because they sound like the sound of car honking.

2. 手語

A very sweet-sounding song! I like how it starts with a lone piano, and even though it is joined by beats and other sounds shortly after, the piano is still prominent throughout the song. The whole song just sounds really happy :D. I like how relaxed Jay sounds in the verses. However, the autotune in the chorus is a big discount. He did this before in the previous album with Mine Mine, using autotune in an R&B song, and just as I did not approve of it then, I do not approve of it now. Still, it's a nice song.

3. 公公偏頭痛 [MV]

This song is just so LOL. But it's really catchy, especially with the repetition of the word "公公" throughout the song. The Chinese-sounding arrangement is good, and Jay's rapping is so fast here! The choreography of the song is cute XD.

4. 明明就 [MV]

I LOVE THIS SONG. It was the second song released as a single before the release of the album, and even though I already had the physical album pre-ordered, I couldn't wait and just had to buy this song off iTunes. It doesn't sound like much after the first listen, but after like the third listen I just fell in love with it. Jay's singing is really good here, especially in switching between his real voice (lol I don't know what "真音" is in English; modal voice?) and falsetto. The lyrics are simple, about letting someone go 'cos she'll be better off with someone else. They are sad, yes, but I think it's Jay's singing, the prominent piano and orchestra that make this song sound so deliciously heartbreaking. I also like how the orchestra starts off soft a few lines into the song, and builds up near the bridge. 

5. 傻笑 (feat. 袁詠琳)

Such a sweet song! At least that's what I thought, until I read the lyrics, which are about two people who like each other but can't be together because of a wrong timing. That's rather strange, considering how happy this song sounds from the very first second till the end, whether it's the singing or the arrangement o__o. That aside, it's a really pleasant song. Cindy's voice is very nice and blends well with Jay's.

6. 比較大的大提琴 (周杰倫+梁心頤+楊瑞代 ) [MV]

This is another of Jay's "weird" songs, but I really like it. I think it's jazz? (Not that I know a thing about jazz.) I like the lone double bass in the beginning of the song and the wind instruments that come in in the chorus. Jay varies his singing quite a bit in this song, which is good. The lyrics are so cheeky lol! Don't tell me the "哇咧喵" before the chorus didn't make you laugh XD. And the goat sound! And Jay's "還有一遍啦" and chuckle before the last chorus are so adorable HAHA. Lara sounds really good in the second verse!

7. 愛你沒差 [MV]

The second ballad of the album. I like how the song starts with just piano, then joined by a soft orchestra, the sound of a ticking clock, and then shortly after drums and guitar come in. Jay's singing sounds good and I think the layering of the voices in this song was done really well. The background voice in the first two lines of the chorus still makes me do a double take though 'cos even though I'm convinced it's Jay's, it sounds so smooth that I really thought it was a girl's LOL. But I think my favourite thing in this song is really the sound of the ticking clock. When you listen to the song at night with earpiece in your ears and silence all around, that sound really sets the atmosphere of the song.

8. 紅塵客棧 [MV]

The 中国风 song of the album, and also the first single to be released. It's not very special, but it's nice. Jay performed this song on piano with an apple, which is kinda cool.

9. 夢想啟動

This song sounds very uplifting! The piano sounds nice.

10. 大笨鐘 [MV]

I really like this song; it's very cute and sweet! Definitely one of my favourites in the album. The lyrics are rather childish, but together with the melody, they sound almost endearingly so. The wind instruments in the chorus add a nice touch to the song.

11. 哪裡都是你

This song is the third ballad of the album. It is so sad :(. And I love it so, sigh. The arrangement is simple, with the usual piano, guitar and drums. But Jay's singing here is so heartfelt and almost desperate, like that in 最長的電影. And the lyrics ;_______;. 

12. 烏克麗麗

Jay's singing at 1:27-1:35 always makes me grin like an idiot; he's just TOO ADORABLE hahahaha. He sounds more nasal here, but I think it was intended and it sounds okay. I also like how there's that tune that you usually hear in scenes related to Hawaii in the background; it brings into mind the image of the beach.

Random post #2.

[pinned] Guys I'm (not-so-)secretly in love with. (28/04/2014)

I can have a bimbz moment every now and then right XD.

These are celebrities that I'm not a fan of and don't usually follow, like if they're artists I may not listen to their songs, or if they're actors I don't have to watch all of their dramas, and my knowledge of them is limited to (but not necessary encompass all of) what's listed on their Wikipedia page. But I like them, for one reason or another.

This list doesn't include other people I am obviously in love with, like *ahem* Jay Chou, etc etc etc. (There should be a lot more, but in the split second I can only think of Jay, lol.)

(Okay, "in love" is maybe too strong a phrase, but if you should know, when it comes to celebrities I throw that phrase around like it's nothing. And in this context, it is nothing, actually.)

1. 王力宏

He's REALLY talented, and I like quite a few of his songs. But who am I kidding, really? He's just. so. good-looking. Anyone that has walked past a Seiko advertisement with me probably has heard me exclaiming, "王力宏好帅" or the like, because somehow I just need to say it every time I see him. (And if I don't say it out loud, in all seriousness, I really am saying it in my head.) In my opinion, he's the (read with an -ee) best-looking Asian guy. And the best part is, he's not really photogenic, so in videos where he's moving, he looks even better. GO FIGURE.

2. 羅志祥

小猪 is filial, hardworking and sincerely nice towards his fans. It doesn't hurt that he's easy on the eyes either. But the biggest reason why I like him is because he's SO hilarious. I don't watch 娛樂百分百 (in which he's one of the MCs) that often, but being able to watch it without subtitles is one of the things that make me feel thankful for knowing Chinese. I can't count just how many times he's caused me to laugh so hard I thought I'd die laughing, and there are a few clips of him that I saved in my Favourites for whenever I might need a good laugh because even though I've watched them many times they still manage to make me laugh every time. Even the sight of him literally rolling on the floor laughing uncontrollably is funny lol!


3. Lee Seung Gi

There's something about Lee Seung Gi that makes him likeable, but I still can't figure out what it is. Maybe he just has a nice personality and it shows? I don't think he's particularly good-looking, but he has a nice smile. And have you read how accomplished he is? Not only is he a singer, actor and MC (and I can objectively say that he does all three well), he is also currently attending a graduate school and has a good family background to boot. Seriously, no wonder people in Korea call him umchinah (mother′s friend′s perfect son).

4. Robert Downey Jr.

Robert Downey Jr is charismatic, funny and just drop-dead gorgeous. I swear he can charm the pants off anyone, male or female, gay or straight. And he's NOT old! Ohwells, who cares. I love those wrinkles around his eyes when he smiles anyway. Did I mention that he's the sexiest man alive? I didn't? There.

5. 仕凌 (MC40) from 大嘴巴

He's CUTE. I was watching the drama 愛上巧克力 (started months ago, right now at episode 30+, but it has like 80 episodes and I'm still contemplating whether to continue) and his comical facial expressions and boyish smile just totally stole the show. And from the few 完全娛樂 episodes that I've watched (he's one of the MCs), he seems down to earth, eloquent and likeable :).

6. 小傑 from JPM

Even though I know a bit about JPM's counterpart, Lollipop F, because of 京犬煜 (XD), I know nothing about JPM, lol. I remember seeing 小傑 on 周湯豪's 好友音樂會 one day when I was bored and had nothing else to watch, and he comes across as a really genuine, nice person. I am always a sucker for nice people! (As you can see, I "fall in love" very quickly, HAHA.) And I like the way he talks; very natural, 很爽快!

7. Tom Hiddleston

 

Tom Hiddleston! I first saw him in The Avengers, where he played Loki. At that time I was still often on Tumblr, and it baffled me how there were like, so many posts dedicated to him, how good-looking/sexy he was and everything. 'Cos I really didn't like Loki's hair (and I was also highly distracted by a Mr Stark in the same film, you see.) But then I got around to watching some interviews by the cast, and somehow I just grew to like him. It has something to do with how humble he comes across as, how genuinely he seems to ponder over each question asked by reporters and how nice he is towards just about everyone. He carries himself really well. I also really like his speaking voice; I can watch/listen to him speak all day *sigh*.


8. Lee Jong Suk

Lee Jong Suk is just ADORABLE. I first saw him in Secret Garden, where his and Oska's side story was my favourite, but I didn't like him until I watched School 2013, where he played a brooding high-schooler who was always either getting into fights or sleeping in class (lol). I don't really know what it is that attracted me to him; maybe it's his wide toothy smile, or how affectionate all his friends/colleagues describe him to be. I haven't watched many of his works, but I hope to, for he is a good actor :).

Happy 34th Jay :).

It's almost 3am, the cold wind is blowing along with the heavy rain and I am listening to 蒲公英的約定 on repeat with my eyes half closed as I am typing this. I am one day late (3 hours, to be exact) because I really wasn't planning on doing this, and I don't have much to say, really, but I just have so much feels right now (it's all the song's fault!) that I need to make this post.

Happy birthday, Jay :). I wish you happiness in all the years to come, as much as you have brought to millions of people through your music. There are a lot of things I wish I could tell you, like how much I love your music, how much I love your music, and well, how much I love your music. But I can't put into words exactly how much it is, so I shall not attempt to do it lest sounding like a complete 花痴. So just thank you, really, for being born, for making music, for being the proud and stubborn person that you are to continue composing songs however you want regardless of whatever others may say. I love you, I love your music. Did I say I love you?

Random post #1.

Even to feel sad,

I have no right.

I did not lose anything,

for it was not mine to lose.

Nothing is missing,

just that it's you I miss.

I need my hearing.

Today a lecturer asked, "What's the sense you don't wanna lose the most?" and said that most people would say sight. I'd say hearing, though. I know that losing sight would probably pose the greatest hindrance to my daily life, but other than that, I'm not someone who places a lot of importance on appearances. But I can't imagine living not being able to listen to music. I'd be miserable, really.

Today, I...

1. Had insomnia and fell asleep at around 5am
2. Woke up at 11am and took Clarinase
3. Put dirty clothes in the washing machine
4. Cooked instant noodles (kimchi-flavoured! with egg!), ate while watching drama and washed the dishes while the washing machine works
5. Hung the clothes to dry
6. Cleaned and organised my huge dumpster of a table in the living room (I am a master at throwing away stuff!)
7. Swept the floor with Adam Lambert blasting in the background
8. Finished at 3pm.

I AM SO TIRED.

[pinned] Facts about myself. (27/01/2013)

Here are some things about me that you may or may not know about.

1. I don't like animals.

I may think that a puppy is adorable, but I'd still keep a distance from it and not want to touch it. I used to say that it's because I think animals are dirty, but then again, it's not really the reason. I guess I'm rather fearful of them?

2. I hate cigarettes.

I hate, loathe cigarettes with a passion. I think smoking is the most selfish addiction ever because in the process of killing themselves slowly, smokers are also killing other people with their second-hand smoke that is more harmful that first-hand one. I get pissed off whenever I smell cigarette smoke, and usually I make my disdain pretty obvious, on purpose. I have nothing against the smokers themselves, as long as they don't smoke within like 10 meter radius of me. I told my dad that I'd stop calling him Dad if he starts smoking, and I was not kidding.

3. I have a very bad memory.

I can't remember things well, so don't be surprised if, say, I say that I can't remember what I had for lunch the day before. (Now that I think about it, I really can't remember what I had o_o.)

4. I love fruits.

I don't think there's any fruit that I dislike. I love fruits!

5. I don't have just one favourite.

I like things, I dislike things. But I don't have favourites. Ask me what my favourite song is and I would never be able to give you an answer, even after you narrow it down to one particular artist. What's wrong with just having a top 3/5/10 for everything?

6. I really don't like to be sick.

When I was young, I really wanted to be a doctor. It wasn't really because of any noble reason like I want to help people, but simply because I dislike being sick. Usually I pride myself on being strong, but when I'm sick, I tend to whine a whole lot.

7. I love music.

I think listening to music is a big part of my daily life. I love music. You can always find the perfect music to go with any weather, mood, and what have you. You can like a song without liking or knowing the language it's sung in, or even its genre. It's rather amazing that I can remember so many songs' lyrics, given my terrible memory.

8. I don't regret.

I tend to do things that I want to, regardless of what others think. Conversely, I don't do things that others may expect me to, if I don't want to do them. Since my actions are a result of my personality and the situation, even if I were to be given a chance to do it over, given the same circumstances, I'd have done the same thing I did at any particular time. Therefore, there's no reason to regret. From time to time I may groan at some stupid thing that I did in the past, but I don't regret that I did it. I take a mental note of my mistakes and tell myself to not do the same things in the future, and that's it.

9. I love singing.
I may not sing well, I don't have a nice or unique voice and I am half tone deaf (because I can't match notes to their names, like A/B/C/etc), but I really like singing. I can sing for hours straight and still feel like singing afterwards. I usually can't stand awkward situations, but in a karaoke place, as long as everyone likes singing (important caveat here), it should never be awkward!

10. I am a direction idiot.
I can never remember directions to places and I have trouble reading the map. I need a GPS installed in my brain. Like, seriously.

11. I love looking at stars.
Stars are always there at night, but most of the time we can't see them, either because of the lights or fog. That's why I feel lucky when I look up and happen to see a starry night, not the mention the fact that it's just really pretty :).

12. I love Jay Chou.
I love Jay Chou....'s music (laugh). I still remember how years ago when my brother borrowed his 七里香 album from a friend I took one look at the cover and wondered out loud how such an ugly person could become so famous, but then he started playing the album and I was totally blown away. I love his music, whether it's the 中国风, the ballads, the rock/rap songs, the happy-go-lucky pop songs or the quirky I-don't-even-know-what-they-are songs. A lot people say that he never changes, and that his songs sound the same, but I beg to differ. Yes, his music has a certain "Jay" feeling to it, like even before you know it's his song you'd get an inkling that it was, but there isn't one single thing that defines Jay's music, for it's really quite diverse. Uhm, okay, I didn't mean to rant. But anyway, yeah, I love Jay Chou's music, and so, I love him. He can do whatever he wants, as long as he keeps making good music. I can go on and on, but yeah, the bottom line is, I love Jay :).

13. I really don't like the cold wind blowing at night.
It always makes me go all emo.

14. I hardly ever remember my dreams.
Moments before being fully awake I may think, "I had a good/bad dream," but minutes after I'd completely forget what the dream was about. Wonder if that's a good or a bad thing.

15. I like drinking.
THERE, I said it.